I Belong to myself

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The information on this blog is not intended as a substitute for professional medical and/or mental health advice, diagnosis, or treatment. This blog is intended for informational purposes only. Any health concern must be assessed by a doctor or another licensed and/or certified clinician. 

I have been on a quest to understand myself for as long as I can remember. Trauma is what spurred this mazzy search for myself. I understood, even as a young child, that I had to develop an intimate relationship with myself. People come and go. Sometimes, the biological family you are born into ; you will not know them by the time you are in your mid-20’s. They are a memory, sometimes a nightmare. Distant distant distant. It is for the best. Not meant to be forever. Everything changes. What is birthed must also die, in one way or another. 

Beginning with one family; stepping into another family; only to see and feel and finally realize their own brand of Dysfunction and Denial. Justifying their criticisms, stating, it is for my own good, for my growth. Ignoring their own accountability for what they brought into the relationship. 

Fuck that shit. 

I make no room for people who believe they have a right to claim their supposed superiority over me. 

Fuck that shit. 

For years, I was achingly aware that I was hanging by a thread. Not feeling like I belong anywhere. Feeling like a burden no matter what. For years, I tried being “good”, not flinching when they stepped on my toes. I was afraid my pain would be too much for them. Turns out, they really didn’t care. 

Through all of those experiences and more…I have come to understand that I belong to myself. Through all of the foggy confusion, the searing pain, the loneliness and the will to carry on. I belong to myself. I know myself. I trust myself. And I wouldn’t have it any other way. All of the Inner Work I am dedicated to ; has a very big pay off. I get to live authentically. I get to create a life that is in alignment with my values and desires. None of this comes for free or without effort. It takes Discipline. It takes Will. 

This past Sunday was my very last online cohort meeting with Headspace. I have completed the mental health coaching training. Yay!!! I feel very proud. Finishing this program highlights that I am at the precipice of a brand new chapter. I am so excited and so grateful. At this moment I feel very much In Love with Life and the World. Sooooo looking forward to meeting new people, going to new places and having newer, joyous adventures. 

Some songs I listened to while writing this:

Smalltown Boy…..Bronski Beat

The Perfect Girl…..Mareux

Love Surrounds You…..Ramsey
Sway…..So Below

Side Note: If you find yourself in the midst of a Spiritual Awakening; Welcome to the Unofficial Club!!! I know the early days of a Spiritual Awakening can feel maddening, confusing and exhausting. There are so many ego deaths involved. The unnerving questioning of Identity, questioning the meaning of this life, past life memories resurfacing, experiencing intense and energy draining Ascension symptoms, the list goes on. I know when I was in the early days of going through the Initiation of a Spiritual Awakening; I experienced confusion, loneliness, and a lack of direction. What I wished I had during those days was some kind of guide…maybe even a coach? A Wellness Coach. That is exactly why I offer these kinds of wellness coaching services. I know how valuable it is to be able to talk about experiencing ALL of the kinds of experiences that come with going through a Spiritual Awakening. I understand the kind of peace one can receive when they get the support that they need. 

Also, if you find that you are at a crossroads with the relationship you have with your Sexual Wellness and have serious questions or qualms about it, working with a coach may be helpful. Again, I understand how participating within a working relationship, how working with a coach, can lend vital support around having clarity and ease within oneself over time. Working with a Wellness Coach to support you in understanding a core human experience such as sexuality can play a big role in Growth and Expansion. 

Working with a Wellness Coach can be an essential part of one’s Soul-U-tioN. 

To schedule your free, initial consultation, click on “Book Session”.

Peace be with you. 

Much Love.